Walking into the new year...

Leave it to Denver to save the first big snowstorm for the last day of the year. It's the perfect silent scene to reflect back on the last year and remember the victories, the struggles, and some of best memories of my life.

My daily email quote today from Abraham Hicks read:

As you imagine and visualize and verbalize your new story, in time you will believe the new story, and when that happens, the evidence will flow swiftly into your experience. A belief is only a thought you continue to think; and when your beliefs match your desires, then your desires must become your reality.

As beautiful as my thoughts were of the past year, this email reminded me to focus equally on the year ahead. There is so much to look forward to...and create! I invite you to do the same. What are you manifesting this year?

No matter if I'm thinking of the past, the present, or the future, I have the same deep love and appreciation for the many incredible people in my life who help me to grow, make me laugh, and sometimes just sit silently next to me on their own journey through life. I couldn't be more blessed. Happy New Year to all of you...and may you receive, receive, receive this year!!!

For better or for worse...

It's interesting as a practitioner how we tend to fall into the "savior" role fairly often. It's as if we know we have a gift of facilitating transformation, so we want to "bless" everyone with our services. The one person who rejects my imposed help 100% of the time is my husband. It's as if he knows that I have the desire to help, so he puts up a huge shield and fights it. As frustrating as it is, I know that people will grow at their own pace, and any negative feelings I have about his rejection is something for me to explore in myself. Tonight was no different than any other time we have this situation. The hubby comes in with some low energy and a defeated remark (usually about his job), and I proceed to get a little over excited and throw out some "oooh...let's talk about this later" or "oh, your energy feels so limited right now. I know I can help." When the conversation goes awry later, I am always surprised! Although, tonight, the realization came that sometimes I just need to be a wife, not a coach. It's a wonderful job and gift that I have, but it doesn't mean that I need to be the conditioning police and walk around busting people. As much as I hate to do it right now, I need to thank my husband for reminding me that when the client is ready, they will ask...

It's the most wonderful time of the year...now I know why

This holiday has been magic for me. I am almost fully recovered from a surgery, I am getting my business up and running again with a head full of great ideas, and my kids are happy and funny (my two favorites). Along with a fantastic Christmas morning (2 years old IS fun!), my husband and I shifted what seemed like the whole house for the new year to come. I finally started creating baby albums and cleared out tons of pregnancy gear for those who have yet to experience it. My husband made an entire kid heaven down the basement (and he also knocked out a new kick-ass office for me down there). I am not joking when I say that clearing and re-designing rooms makes me feel so peaceful and centered. I am looking forward to 2011 more than I have any other year in my life so far. So before I lay down tonight, I am holding my arms out to the vast universe, and screaming "How does it get any better than this?!"...and then waiting for it to show me...

Remembering the infinite being that you are...

I have been listening to and studying a lot of Access principles lately. For some reason, it really resonates with me. Mostly because it seems to focus around the fact that we are ALL infinite beings with the ability to make our own choices (unfortunately, a lot of those choices hold conditioning, which keeps "unwanted" circumstances in place). And some of the questions asked are so profound, so I thought I would share it with those of you who are interested in getting your own brain tweaked! This group of questions is around receiving, and why we energetically push it away:

1) How much have you limited your receiving based on the judgement of value? (For example: I have to work 4 hours to make this much money...so I have to work to receive. Or I have to DO something in order to receive...limiting any other sources of money without exerting any energy).

2) What secret agenda (example: unconscious thoughts) with value to you have that maintains the not receiving you are currently choosing?

3) Do we deserve to breathe or do we just breathe? So what if we could receive EVERYTHING like that?

Just by destroying and uncreating this "exchange universe" we live in and believe exists will allow for opportunities to flow into our worlds much quicker! And this is applicable to ALL receiving (career, finances, love, etc...) Think about the concept for a while and feel free to throw out some questions or awarenesses. I would love to help facilitate the clearing of this energy in all of you!

A Big Lesson from a Small Child

My son Julian was born with bilateral microtia, which means that both of his ears did not develop correctly, leaving him with moderate to severe hearing loss. His teachers told my husband this morning that his speech is regressing, and it sent me into a 2 hour tailspin. I needed the cry, as I should be able to grieve the idea of having my son not be "normal" like everyone else's child, but more importantly, this was a chance to learn about and love myself. The guilt and the grieving actually came from me feeling like as a practitioner of self consciousness, I should be able to be strong and handle this situation I was dealt with in the most graceful manner. And even more lying to myself came from the idea that I can't progress in this work I do and be valid unless I am unfazed by my son and his disability. After a little thinking about this (and a lot of help from a friend), I realized that the most growth I could receive from this is to honor myself and allow the emotions to come out (no matter what they are). Breathing into the reality of "what-is" is really the way to truthfully see it and deal with the circumstances. And at the end of the day, I wouldn't choose to have anyone else be Julian's mom...I know he "hears" loud and clear that I am the mom for him.